Music Theatre

Music Theatre is looking more and more promising. That is perfectly fine by me:) Maybe Wichita State? Not sure. I just know that I am in love......... with music!

School....

I sure hope I'll be able to go to college either this fall or next spring. I hate homeschooling. I am just so ready to get on with the next chapter of my life. I was thinking about going to Roosevelt University in Chicago for something to do with music, but while I was reading their website, I realized that this University has one of the best arts programs in the States. So I threw that idea out the window because you have to be amazing and rich to go to that school. My goal is to go to a school that is at least three hours away. I'm just tired of being home. I would kind of like to experience some different things. We'll see what will happen in the future. Lord willing I'll be able to get into a good school. It's all in His hands.

One step foward, two steps back. I could rant and go on about how upset I am right now, but that's not very cool. I'm trying to be content in what ever situation I am in, it's just very hard at times. I am going to be in this situation for a long time so I am going to have to try and be content and handle things in a mature way. God, give me strength!

Lots of stuff

So much stuff to say and I don't know where to start. How about this. My parents got me a car for graduation. Was I shocked? Oh yeah I was shocked. The first thing that came to my mind though was," Am I now the spoiled brat whos parents get him everything?" And then I decited that i didn't really care because now....I HAVE A CAR!!!! But right after they gave me the car, we started talking about how much I am going to have to pay for insurance every month and having to buy my own gas and also paying taxes.... And then I thought, well maybe I'm not so much the spoiled brat because a apoiled brat doesn't have to pay for insurance and so on. With having a car means that your money is just slipping away.... gross.

In other news. I am going to be an uncle again. That was really surprising news to me considering that its not Erin and Andy who are having the baby. Yeah, now your surprised too aren't you? Haha....

Graduation is right around the corner and I am so not ready for it. The day after graduation is my birthday, couple weeks after that is VBS, day after that is vacation to Colorado with the WHOLE family, and a month after that I will be in Vancouver. After Vancouver I hope I will be starting classes. This is going to be a busy year....

It has been way to long since the last time I posted. January has been a very strange month. I have made a close new friend within just one month. If you know me well, you would know that I don't really get that close to people really fast. There are just to many trust issues when it comes to me making a new friend. January also brought lots of.... Unexpected suprises. Some good suprises and of course some bad suprises. One of the good suprises is that I found out that i get to go to Los Angeles! I get to see Liz! I am so excited. I also might be able to go to Arizona this spring break with Cinda and Minda....I really hope that it all works out.... So yeah now i remember why I don't really write on my blog, its because once I sit down to write, I forget everything I was going to say. So I guess I will leave you with that.

My Mother

If I didn't know better, I would think my Mom is stalking me. When I had xanga, it never went unnoticed by my Mom. Then I got facebook.... and now Mom has one too. And my blog, my Mom didn't know I had one....until yesterday when my mom was reading Nathan Whitman's blog and found that he was following me.
So yesterday my Mom said "Josh, I didn't know you had a blog!"
When she said that I was thinking oh crap!
Then she said " Your spelling was really good, you could use your blog for school and I could grade you!"
So my spelling was good and now she wants to use this blog for school...... great. What would I do without my Mom?

Well, piano is waiting for me so I should stop procrastinating and get to it.

Life

I didn't think I was going to get a blog, I mean I already have facebook, xanga, myspace, and recently I have started tweeting. But here I am.... I just couldn't resist.

Two hours of piano a day is a lot of work! Getting ready for auditions is a lot of work! I know I wont make it to state to try out for scholarships.... I just know its good for me, and my mom wants me to. I'm not so sure that piano is really my thing, I like playing and I know I am somewhat decent at it but, I know I'm not the best.

I'm a senior this year, and people keep asking me what I am going to do after I graduate. I don't know what I'm going to do! School started two weeks ago and I feel so stressed out about what I am going to do next year! Life sucks! But I know I'm just saying that because life is hard. I know that God will works things out in his own timing.

Everyday I think about Life Action. I think about how it was one of the best things I have ever done in my life. I also think about how much I miss having chapel twice a day and how much I grew in the Lord. Ever since I have been back, I think about how I grew so much in my faith while I was there. And now that I am not going to chapel twice a day, and don't have the accountability here like I did there, I feel like I have taken a few steps backwards instead of forward. I want to go back soo much but, I know there is so much to do here at home.

Life is hard, but in the end, you'll look back and see that it was all worth it